Life

You don't have to be feeling guilty if your
postponing  something important in your life . sometimes it's really important  when we get to this dark side in our mind we have to think wait a minute  I have to check myself at this point . like what do I do when things aren't going according  to my plan. like this was supposed  to be  on this time line or this plan  and I have to postpone  it and this is doesn't feel like feel "okay "  . our whole entire life we were given  really really spasific  timelines for things how are things supposed  to go i  mean even  of the age before we could even talk  we have no clue  what's even going on . our parents  are very aware of like your supposed to  talk on this age or walk in this age  . it's like a surtein  range were things  where things were supposed  to go and and it gives a a since of suranty in the world it helps us that there will be a benchmark and sort of finish line that we can cross before we could move on to other thing and in a crazy world that it's completely  unseran  where there is so little that we could actually  can control . having things like deadlines and times lines it helps us feel calmer . it helps us like ok I know where this is gonna go do when a ranch  gets thrown in  the mix and suddenly  you have to supone  anything important   it can throw our world in a loop!
we always start worrying and wander of what everybody else will start to think
because we love  the idea that I can expect that this  will happen when. because it makes up feel like we're in control
[again these" timelines " these "deadlines" this is really important  for humans . haven't you notice if your not "graduated" at the time  or not" married " at this time  then "something is wrong with you  " supposivly  because your not living up to other people timelines  and expectations  ?  *boring way to live in don't believe in that  i  don't incourage  you to live you consaps  of spasific  timeline or dead line is going to be . but sometimes that starts to happen  seeing myself from the outside in and imagining what all theses people are thinking about me like my professors and my parents and my friends  and all these people that I work with like what are they gonna think? what are they gonna think? and when we  do that ooohhh my God it's exsosting  and horrible and it doesn't surf anybody and it make me confused because  I don't really know how I really feel